I'm just going to jump right into this one!
Do you ever feel like things in your life are just going wrong? Do you ever feel like things can't possibly get worse, and then they do? Ever found yourself at such a weak point where you thought to yourself, "I give up"? I notice that whenever people find themselves in this point of life, they tend to turn away from God, instead of giving him everything.
Here's a short personal story for you all...
I applied to numerous colleges, for music performance/education. I was accepted into everyone I applied to and won some of the best scholarships for my auditions. However due to complications with my high school and incorrect transcripts being sent, my spot was passed up and I was eventually rejected. You can only imagine how devastated i was as i watching my dreams slip away. I was rewarded top scholarships to some of the best music schools and I couldn't go. Just as I was losing hope, all of my friends were assuring me that I just simply wasn't meant to go to that school. I believed this at first, but after every school rejected me, I was pretty down and confused.
I managed to keep my determination high and I kept trying. I decided maybe it wasn't meant to be right now. I applied to community college, was accepted, enrolled and went to my first day of classes. Things were looking up and I was making the best of my situation.
On my first day of classes I got an email from some of my professors saying that over half of my classes were potentially going to be cancelled and that we would be notified before noon. Come noon over half of my college classes were canceled, and everything else was completely full with wait lists. I tested out of two classes and was left with a one credit ACA class. I figured it wasn't very time efficient so I left the community college. I was completely frustrated, hadn't i had enough bad luck with my college dreams? I was still determined to not give up, so I applied to online college and was accepted and the next morning i got a phone call from the college, stating that I wasn't "old" enough to be taking their online degree program. I was absolutely frustrated at this point. So here I am.... capable of getting into the best of the best music schools with full ride scholarships to almost full ride scholarships.... out of college.
After I got that phone call I literally said to myself, "I can't take this anymore, I give up :("
I was crushed... here I am a young girl, just getting out into the world with high ambitions and striving to do the best things with my life. I want a college education.... this is AMERICA, why is this so difficult?
Well at this point I was literally at a breaking point, and decided that I should start looking at the best jobs I can get with a high school diploma because i was going to have to settle in life. That's when my spark of hope found me. I was sitting in my bed and browsing through some of my photography work. I stumbled across a picture I took a while ago and well... the picture says it all....
When I saw this and really took it in, I knew at that moment that I was being tested. I know I'm not meant to settle in life. I'm meant for something much more, and I'm going to be put through trials in life where things get rough. This is just one of the very many obstacles to come. I know, I know that God has a plan for my life and I have to be sure to keep my faith in Him strong and know that things are going to be okay. I trust Him, and know that if things aren't going according to my plan right now... it's going to be worth it in the long run. I will always have God with me no matter what happens in life, and that alone is enough to keep me going.
Don't ever let go of your faith, because He does have a plan for everyone. Life is by no means ever easy. If you ever find yourself in such a weak point in life, just pray... He's always listening, and He's always there with you. Every step of our lives....
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